God does speak to me!
I was worshiping at youth group a couple nights ago. God really spoke to me that night about something that happened at the girl’s retreat. He was reminding me of what he told me up there.
At the girl’s retreat we had a time when we had to ask God certain questions that were in the book, then we had to share what God told us after ten or fifteen minutes. One of the the questions was:
” What does God think is unique about you?”
God clearly showed me something right then. I my eyes filled with tears because I would NEVER have thought that was unique about me. I actually thought the total opposite. I didn’t want to share it with the whole group. So everyone went around telling what God had said to them. The group got really deep. I was the last person to talk. In the time I was waiting, I was trying to say God will you please change it? I l don’t want to share it with the whole group, But God said “No”. God loves this about me. It finally got around to me. It was really hard to say it, but here it goes.
I have a learning disability. I hate talking about it. I feel some people won’t like me because of it. I never feel very smart when it comes to school stuff, I actually feel really dumb. I feel I am not as “cool” as everyone else. It makes me sad. Sometimes I used to feel that I wouldn’t find the right guy because of this. But God said, “This is how I made you. I love this about you. This makes you different from the world. The guy I have in mind for you will understand.” All I could think is Wow!
To bring it back to the worship night, God really spoke to me and reminded me about things he thinks are awesome that I didn’t think were awesome. God is incredible. God made me the way that I am and I guess that will never change. It is important to remember to treasure what God tells you to. God made me who I am and I know who I am. I guess the learning disability is a gift and not a curse.
Stina!!!!!
First off, Stina is awesome. She is my older sister! I love her to death. She has been gone since she finished high school. She went to YWAM and has only come back to visit us and that’s not very much. I couldn’t ask for a better older sister. I can’t even begin to explain how much I love her. I am very close to my sister.
I can’t wait for her to come back. We always have a great time together. She will be back for the whole summer too. How awesome is that? I get in weird moods when I am around her. I can be myself around her. I love it when she is back because I get in singing moods and go crazy. She loves it. Stina, be ready for singing when you get back! 
Stina can sometimes be a pain in the butt and I mean a big one. If you don’t believe that, listen to this: I was over visiting at our neighbor’s house one day. Stina called on the phone at my friend’s house saying “Mom needs your help.” Being the good girl that I am, I came home. Mom didn’t really want me. Stina wanted me to get glass of ICE WATER for HER. I refused to get it for her and went back to my friend’s house.
When I was around six years old, she told me that I was born without a head and they had to sew one on. I know it sounds crazy, but I believed her. I cried all of the time because of that.
She would put toothpaste in every pair of underwear in our house (other than her own.) It dried clear and you couldn’t see it. So you would try on a pair, it felt gross, but you didn’t know why. It was disgusting. Every pair! She thought that it was funny. Then one day before church when I was in the shower she put ALL my underwear in a big bowl of water and froze it, so that I would not have underwear for days. I was so mad.
When I was younger, I was a clean freak. I would not even sleep under my covers because I couldn’t stand them being messy. One day Stina and a friend moved everything around in my room and then t.p.’d it. I was screaming when I found out. I was so freaking mad.
But with all that said, she is an awesome sister. I always enjoyed going to youth group with her. She was my bigger sister. She made me feel very welcome. When she was out of high school every time I went it was not the same. I didn’t have her next to me when I needed her.
I love when we snuggle in bed and talk, when we watch a bunch of movies together, when I am just with her. I had a blast when I went to California to visit her. We laughed so hard. We got to go to the beach together and walk around. I got to meet all her friends. I hope I get to go back next year. My sister is really a blessing. Whoever is around her will be blessed.
Fun times in California!
Thanks for being an AMAZING sister to me. I could never ask for a better older sister!
I LOVE YOU STINA!
Mission Trip!
My team and I have been having meetings every Sunday for awhile. They are good meetings. In the meeting we have been learning Spanish. Learning other languages is very hard for me. I am dsylexic and thats why it’s so hard.
One other thing that we are suppose to be doing is dramas. We don’t have the video to show people how to do them though. We have not even started practicing them and we ONLY have six weeks left - that’s not long. They are kind of hard to learn. I am just praying that we learn it very quickly.
During our last meeting, we had prayer before everyone left. It was really AWESOME! God was totally there. Prayer is a very important part of life. God does amazing things in prayer. Some of the things we had prayed for are: money to come in, fundraisers and for God to do amazing things when we are there.
One of the things that I have really been worried about for this trip is money so that I can go. I totally know that God wants me to go. He has made that very clear to me. I really want to go. I want to go like crazy. I don’t feel like the money has came in like it did the last trip. I think that God is doing this so that I can learn to trust him.
If all I am trying to do is get the money so that I can go, that’s not right. I need to be in constant prayer and seek God, making sure I am ready to go. I think that this trip will be a little bit more challenging. There are things like giving my testimony that we didn’t have to do last time. I don’t like getting up in front of people, so I think that it will be good for me.
God!
I believe that God speaks to everyone. Sometimes it’s very loud and clear. Other times you have to listen and it’s very quite. Its just your choice whether you are going to listen or not. I really want to walk in what God has for me. God shows so much mercy and grace. One of the ways that I really hear from God is when I am in worship. I hear him and he shows me things.
I want what God has for me. I bet God has so many things in store for me. I have to wait for all of it though. Sometime waiting for stuff can be hard. At least I know it can be for me. But if I wait, in God’s timing it will be so much better. People sometimes go with what their flesh is telling them. When I say people, I am including myself in that.
God wants intmacy with you. God wants you to be in love with him. I think people tend to forget God wants every part of you.
Nerd Ice Cream!
When I was a little girl, I would always go to DQ and get a nerd blizzard. Well, now they don’t have that kind of blizzard (how sad). It was my favorite, at least when I was little. Well last night I had to run and get a couple things from a friend. My brother came with me. We needed time together. Daniel is so funny sometimes. I was laughing so hard, I was about crying. We wanted ice cream.
I was remembering what it was like to eat nerd ice cream when I was little. It sounded amazing. So Daniel and I thought let’s just make it ourselves. We dont need to spend eight dollars on to ice cream cones, when we can just spend four or five and make it ourselves. So we went to the store and got the stuff to make it. I ate way more than I probably should of. After I was done eating it. I felt so sick. But it was worth it, I guess.
Ice Cream Is Always Good!
