Dreaming…
Do you ever have a dream that gets crushed?
I have always been told to dream big. I have dreamed this dream for two or more years. I thought it was coming to be. This weekend it was just crushed. I am very disappointed and very confused. I have cried a lot and felt very sick. Sick to the point that I just want to throw up!
I am learning that it really hurts,sucks and is painful. I will be alright though. God has me in his hands.God counts every tear I cry and it breaks his heart. I will have a couple days of hurting and then I am going to start dreaming BIG again or at least try. I know God probably has better plans for me and I need to trust that. I don’t understand why this is happening this way but I need to trust God.
I know that this other person is pretty hurt too. I really believe its not this persons fault. This person is doing what others are telling him is the right thing to do even though its hard. We both are just really confused. Maybe this is for the good. God, I just don’t know!
Lindsay Smith said,
November 21, 2008 at 12:51 am
hey you…
God’s ways, love and thoughts are so beyond our comprehension that when things we hoped for don’t come to pass, we feel utterly disappointed. We feel almost robbed, in a way, of what we thought was OURS. Someone described to me once that the will of God is like a playground. You can go down the slide; you can swing on the swings or dangle from the monkey bars, but as long as God is number one in your heart and life, it’s not that complicated. Knowing God for a while now, I have found this to be true. As long as you do what He tells you to do; pray, worship, read His word, etc, He will do the rest. He will sweep right in when you feel like all is lost and show you a way that you had no idea existed. It’s in the time of disappointment and confusion, that we have no choice but to see what God is up to. I love you and am here for you anytime. Life is a journey and it’s not about the destination or the dream fulfilled, but the process of getting there that makes us who we are; that connects us to God. Love you…
Lindsay