The next thing I saw was another car pull out of the church parking lot, hit an oncoming car and flip over two times. I couldn’t speak. I was terrified. You know you can watch it on tv and it does not bother you but when it is in real life its scary. There was only one guy in the car. Thank goodness. The guy didn’t go to the hospital and was alright. I just don’t understand how you wouldn’t be hurt. It has to be God was watching out for that guy because there is no way in the world he couldn’t be hurt. I couldn’t sleep that night. That is all I could think about. One of my biggest fears ever is getting in a car crash. Its a very scary thought for me!

Some of the thoughts that were going through my mind were: What if that was me and I died? What if that was someone I was really close to?  It would be very painful to watch someone close die.

Have you had anything scary like that happen to you?

There are steps of forgiveness.  It is very important to do all of these. Unforgiveness can affect your life.

One step is healing. Let God comfort you in the pain/hurt that you have gone through and move on. Believe that God has you in his hands and wants the best for you. That’s hard at times or at least it is for me. God wouldn’t put you through something you can’t handle. It can be so easy to stay mad or frustrated. But really what good will that do? Nothing! Going through the healing stage is hard.

Another step is just letting it go. Don’t let your mind dwell on what has happened. That’s not good.You can’t move on if your always thinking about it. You can’t

If you can’t move on from a place where you have been hurt and you just stay cold-hearted, you wont go anywhere in life. You’re always going to think, “Why am I always at this place?” It’s because you need to forgive. How can God forgive you if you can’t forgive?  You will miss out on the blessing God has for you if you can’t forgive.

My day looked like this.

I woke up around 10:30.

Took a shower, went to my old school and said “hi”  to people.

Came back, picked up my sister and went and got chick-fil-la

Watched a movie and fell asleep.

Got up and got wings. Yummy.

For dessert I had fruit snacks (Maybe warm brownies and ice cream now).

I feel fat now.

Just didn’t feel like doing anything.

What a great day.

The next thing I knew, Michaela started praying to God. She said, “God I love you so so so much. God I pray that you take my bump away on my neck. God don’t let me get get sick again. Thank you for Elissa’s birthday.” She just kept going on and on. She has already started to be a powerful prayer. I love sitting there and just listening to her.

1. We sing to the Christmas tree; not to each other, not just to sing; we sing to the tree.

2. We read Luke Chapter 2

3.We have roast, mashed potatoes and pie.

4. We watch National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation.

5. We open Christmas presents on Christmas  Eve.

6. We go look at lights.

7. We always get candy canes with m&ms (GROSS).

8. Someone almost every year gets sad because they don’t get what they wanted.

9. We always get a real tree. (But this year, for the first time ever, we had to get a freaking fake one. I am not a fan of this.)

10. My dad goes out every Christmas Eve to get more stocking stuffers and other presents.

11. We always go to a Christmas Eve Service at church.

12. We play games.

13. We always draw names  who we are going to get a presents for.

14. We stay here for Christmas.

15. We tell everyone what we are grateful for.

16. We wear PJ’s all day.

17. We almost always know what we got ahead of time.

I have worked my butt off getting A’s and B’s during high school. It’s time to be done.  I am remembering back to my early years of high school. I would always say, “I can’t do this. I am going to fail.” I didn’t believe in myself. I would come home crying time after time thinking that I just suck.  I would always wonder why I had a learning disability. I hated it. I would always feel out of place because I was the dumb one and everyone else was very smart. I always felt dumb.  My Teachers, Mom, Dad and Whitney would tell me time after time that I am doing GREAT. They would say, “You would do great in college.” Many times I would have a teacher say, “I really want you to go to college.” This is what made me get through high school. Thanks to everyone who helped me.

I have really come to understand that God gave me a learning disability for a reason, even if I really didn’t want it. Yeah I sure did not like it, but I am going to be able to show someone else what I went through and help them get through it. It is a BIG challenge I feel God has put out there for me and I accomplished it. I wonder what the next new challenge will be.

I am excited to be able to help someone get through the same problems that I have went through.

On the second day of Christmas,
Michaela sent to me
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy

On the third day of Christmas,
Sarah sent to me
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy

On the fourth day of Christmas,
Daniel sent to me
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy

On the fifth day of Christmas,
Elissa sent to me
Five golden cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy

On the sixth day of Christmas,
Christina sent to me
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.
On the seventh day of Christmas,
Nate Noe sent to me
Seven kissing sisters,
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.

On the eighth day of Christmas,
Rocky sent to me
Eight chewed up shoes,
Seven kissing sisters,
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.

On the ninth day of Christmas,
My Mother sent to me
Nine burnt meat loaves
Eight chewed up shoes,
Seven kissing sisters,
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.

On the tenth day of Christmas,
My Father sent to me
Ten farts uh smelling
Nine burnt meat loaves
Eight chewed up shoes,
Seven kissing sisters,
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.
On the eleventh day of Christmas,
Mr. Hall sent to me
Eleven physics projects,
Ten farts uh smelling
Nine burnt meat loaves
Eight chewed up shoes,
Seven kissing sisters,
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.

On the twelfth day of Christmas,
God sent to me
Twelve forgiven sins,
Eleven physics projects,
Ten farts uh smelling
Nine burnt meat loaves
Eight chewed up shoes,
Seven kissing sisters,
Six painful sheckems,
Five golden Cookies,
Four funny jokes,
Three freaking bad attitudes,
Two big messes,
And a diaper that was poopy.

Last week Danielle talked. She gave us all a challenge for this week. She gave us all a Bible verse. We looked it up and read it out loud to everyone and told them what it meant to us and how we are going to live it out this week. My verse was 1Timothy 4:12, which says,  “Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.”  How am I going to live this out? I said  that when it comes to the older  people who look down on me because I am young,  I am going to show them grace,  peace and love.  Man that can be very, very, very hard. My thought when I got this verse was I won’t have any problems with this  because I have gone through this already. But I guess God wanted me to go through it again.

I feel I have dealt with this before, but God is in control. I always have have to remind myself of that. God has created me who I am. I know who I am with out a doubt. I am here on earth to please God NOT man. I believe that all of the challenges that we go through draw us closer to God. It might be very painful to go through, but I want to be very close to my God. So I will do whatever it takes. God is good.

The big question is: Do you worship God for something? To impress someone? To act like you are super close to God? Or, do you just worship God for him?

Why do you worship?

It seems that people go to God seeking the answers for this questions: Why don’t I have this or that? They seem to be very unhappy with what they have. God sees the whole picture, we don’t. We might think that this boyfriend or girlfriend, this shoe or book, this iphone or this big tv will make us happy and we will tell God if you let me have this, I won’t ask for anything else. I know this will make me happy, but God knows best.

God is always blessing me, whether I see it or don’t. God wants us to be happy not unhappy. He has blessed everyone just because he died on the cross for all of our sins.  That’s all that we need, but we are selfish people here on earth. We don’t think that’s all we need.

The next Big question is: Do you tithe trusting him or do you have very little faith. God promies that he will take care of us. Now that is not always easy to believe, but we need to TRUST, HOPE and BELIEVE that God is our provider.

It is who you are!

It’s what you do when nobody is watching.

It’s thinking about others.

It’s taking responsibility for your actions.

It’s not running away.

It’s dealing with the hard stuff.

It’s telling the truth.