I want to be 18 right now!

September 22, 2008 at 4:35 am (Uncategorized)

I wish I was eighteen right now!

I can’t wait tables until I am eighteen because you have to be eighteen to serve alcohol. One of the beauty schools that I looked at going to, you had to be eighteen. I can’t vote. I really want to be a grown-up. I am not like other kids my age. I am a lot different.

I can do a whole lot more when I am eighteen. Yeah, high school years are fun, I guess. I wish I would have graduated early, but that didn’t happen. I am not into the party scene that many people my age are into. They don’t like the homework part but they like to party, get in trouble, not having to have a job, staying up late, etc.

I am totally the opposite of that. I don’t get in trouble. I am very innocent. Sometimes too innocent. I want to start beauty school. I want to grow up and get on with my life. I want to grow up and get married, have a family, be a homemaker. I want to help with youth girls.


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Girls sleepover rocked!

September 21, 2008 at 3:10 am (Uncategorized)

Right after the Resound concert, all the girls went over to Judi’s house. By the way, Mark and Judi’s house is BEAUTIFUL. I didn’t really know what to expect but fun. We got there and everybody went downstairs. I counted fifteen girls. That’s so many freaking girls. That made me happy!

Judi had went and bought all kinds of snacks!

We had:







I made my peanut butter cookies (Hope those were good!) 🙂

Shaina had made a girls CD for all  of us to dace to around  the the pool table. That was a blast. I couldn’t stay all night at the girls sleepover but I had a a lot of fun. I didn’t want to leave, and I didn’t want to tell Judi I could not stay. I didn’t want to make her sad! We need to have more girls sleepovers!

Sorry it’s kind of late writing this.  Thanks Judi!

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Wrong turn…..

September 12, 2008 at 12:06 am (Uncategorized)

Last night was a bad night for me.

I was trying to be a good sister and daughter. I told my parents I could go pick up my my sister and her boyfriend from the airport. I had a lot of confidence in myself. I really thought I could do it.  I wanted to be the cool little sister who comes and picks her sister up.  Well that didn’t happen. I wanted to let my parents go to bed at a decent time because they have not been sleeping well. That didn’t happen either.

I got so close to the airport.  It got to a point where I had to go left or right, I choose right. That was wrong, it took me to a toll road. I had no coins. So I had to run through the toll station and I watch it take a picture of my car. Darn it.

They were suppose to  arrive at midnight. She landed a half hour early and called me! I left extra half hour early, just in case. So I had to run through the toll station and I watch it take a picture of my car. Darn it. After that I just wanted to cry. I sucked at this. I had called home a couple times but nobody answered. Finally my mom answered and I told her I was lost. I felt so bad I had just woke my mom up! I wanted to curl in a hole and die.

I was driving around for like an hour and at one point I was behind the airport. It was dark outside. I was so scared that I thought I was never going to ever get there or even get home. I hate not being good at directions.

Finally I got there. I let Christina drive back because there was no way I was going to. I was sitting in the back sit texting my mommy. I love her! One of her text said “Remember that you never get permanently lost. It is only for a little while. No harm done”.  My mom is the best!

Trying to do good last night didn’t work for me!

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September 9, 2008 at 2:37 am (Frustrated, Life)

I am a Senior this year! Go me!

There are up and downs to everything. School is a down for me. School is one of the hardest things in my life. I feel very dumb when it comes to being in class and  then doing the homework. I always work my hardest even though its hard. Every school year I start out with crying and thinking I can’t do it. I feel that way now. I have got all A’s, that’s because I work hard, not that I always get it right.

This year I only have two classes, physics and practical writing. This year is really easy compared to other years! Physics is really hard though. I don’t understand it. Every time I have done it so far I have cried. I want to give up. I feel so dumb because I feel everyone else understands it but me! 😦 It sucks feeling this way.

All I can do is pray God gives me the strength to get through this class.

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