December 1, 2008 at 5:55 am (Blessed, Church, Funny, Life)

Man, do I love worship. It’s the time when God and I become really close. Where we are undone in the presence of God.  Where I feel he is holding me in his arms making me feel better. It’s where I hear his voice more than I do any other place. Everyone should have a place where it’s just them and God. It may not be worship, it could be something totally different.

The big question is: Do you worship God for something? To impress someone? To act like you are super close to God? Or, do you just worship God for him?

Why do you worship?

It seems that people go to God seeking the answers for this questions: Why don’t I have this or that? They seem to be very unhappy with what they have. God sees the whole picture, we don’t. We might think that this boyfriend or girlfriend, this shoe or book, this iphone or this big tv will make us happy and we will tell God if you let me have this, I won’t ask for anything else. I know this will make me happy, but God knows best.

God is always blessing me, whether I see it or don’t. God wants us to be happy not unhappy. He has blessed everyone just because he died on the cross for all of our sins.  That’s all that we need, but we are selfish people here on earth. We don’t think that’s all we need.

The next Big question is: Do you tithe trusting him or do you have very little faith. God promies that he will take care of us. Now that is not always easy to believe, but we need to TRUST, HOPE and BELIEVE that God is our provider.


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5 Love Languages

August 14, 2008 at 5:30 pm (Blessed, Life)

1. Words Of Affirmation

2. Quality Time

3. Receiving Gifts

4. Acts of Service

5. Physical Touch

Quality time means spending time listening, sharing, doing ordinary things together and doing special things together. This language includes quality conversation.

My LOVE LANGUAGE is Quality Time! Quality time is very important to me. I can’t even begin to say how much it means to me. It breaks my heart when I don’t get time with people! I am going to be real right here: I cry when I I don’t get this time with people who are important to me. People don’t understand how much this means to me. I feel this week I haven’t gotten very much quality time with anyone. It sucks!

I don’t really have another love language. Quality time is a big thing to me. I love doing acts of service for other people but what really makes me happy is time.

What is your Love Language?

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My new room!

July 28, 2008 at 8:58 pm (Blessed, Life)

If you didn’t know, my family likes to prank! I like it too. But I hate it when you have not been home for a week and come back to a mess. So before I left I told my family and friends I would be really upset if they did anything mean to my room!! I came back to this!

If you didn’t know, my room was orange and lime green before. It was kinda ugly. I was shocked. I was so excited. My room is beautiful now! Thanks to everyone who helped do my room. You’re awesome!

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Update on my mission trip!

July 10, 2008 at 8:51 pm (Blessed, Friends, Life, Trusting)

Only six days till I leave. I am so excited. It has come so fast. I will be gone eight days doing the will of God. I can’t wait to see what God is going to do there. I pray our team becomes even closer than we already are and falls even more in love with Jesus.

One of the things I was really worried about was getting all my money. I would pray that I would get money every week until I leave and that I would NOT have to use my money that I was saving to go to beauty school. Last week, I was going over to a friend’s house. When I was walking in I was praying and asking God to let someone gave me $l00 dollars. A friend was going to go on the trip but couldn’t and gave me a little of they money she had got. I was so blessed. I couldn’t believe it. God answer my prayer so fast. God is so faithful.

I think it can be so hard for me to be patient and just wait. Not that I was thinking that God wouldn’t provide but I was getting worried. God just wanted me to trust him.

Every week since I sent out my support letter, I have got one or two checks a week. Two weeks ago I still needed $450. That’s still a lot to me. I thought and had a big feeling I wasn’t going to get it. We had a BBQ at the church to raise money and didn’t think I would get very much with that either.

Yesterday, they told each of us the amount of money that we still needed. All I need is $85 dollars! Wow thats not much at all.

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God does speak to me!

June 7, 2008 at 10:45 pm (Blessed, Friends, God, Life, Trusting)

I was worshiping at youth group a couple nights ago. God really spoke to me that night about something that happened at the girl’s retreat. He was reminding me of what he told me up there.

At the girl’s retreat we had a time when we had to ask God certain questions that were in the book, then we had to share what God told us after ten or fifteen minutes. One of the the questions was:

” What does God think is unique about you?”

God clearly showed me something right then. I my eyes filled with tears because I would NEVER have thought that was unique about me. I actually thought the total opposite. I didn’t want to share it with the whole group. So everyone went around telling what God had said to them. The group got really deep. I was the last person to talk. In the time I was waiting, I was trying to say God will you please change it? I l don’t want to share it with the whole group, But God said “No”. God loves this about me. It finally got around to me. It was really hard to say it, but here it goes.

I have a learning disability. I hate talking about it. I feel some people won’t like me because of it. I never feel very smart when it comes to school stuff, I actually feel really dumb. I feel I am not as “cool” as everyone else. It makes me sad. Sometimes I used to feel that I wouldn’t find the right guy because of this. But God said, “This is how I made you. I love this about you. This makes you different from the world. The guy I have in mind for you will understand.” All I could think is Wow!

To bring it back to the worship night, God really spoke to me and reminded me about things he thinks are awesome that I didn’t think were awesome. God is incredible. God made me the way that I am and I guess that will never change. It is important to remember to treasure what God tells you to. God made me who I am and I know who I am. I guess the learning disability is a gift and not a curse.

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June 6, 2008 at 11:58 pm (Blessed, Family, Frustrated, Funny, Life)

First off, Stina is awesome. She is my older sister! I love her to death. She has been gone since she finished high school. She went to YWAM and has only come back to visit us and that’s not very much. I couldn’t ask for a better older sister. I can’t even begin to explain how much I love her. I am very close to my sister.

I can’t wait for her to come back. We always have a great time together. She will be back for the whole summer too. How awesome is that? I get in weird moods when I am around her. I can be myself around her. I love it when she is back because I get in singing moods and go crazy. She loves it. Stina, be ready for singing when you get back! 🙂 🙂 🙂

Stina can sometimes be a pain in the butt and I mean a big one. If you don’t believe that, listen to this: I was over visiting at our neighbor’s house one day. Stina called on the phone at my friend’s house saying “Mom needs your help.” Being the good girl that I am, I came home. Mom didn’t really want me. Stina wanted me to get glass of ICE WATER for HER. I refused to get it for her and went back to my friend’s house.

When I was around six years old, she told me that I was born without a head and they had to sew one on. I know it sounds crazy, but I believed her. I cried all of the time because of that.

She would put toothpaste in every pair of underwear in our house (other than her own.) It dried clear and you couldn’t see it. So you would try on a pair, it felt gross, but you didn’t know why. It was disgusting. Every pair! She thought that it was funny. Then one day before church when I was in the shower she put ALL my underwear in a big bowl of water and froze it, so that I would not have underwear for days. I was so mad.

When I was younger, I was a clean freak. I would not even sleep under my covers because I couldn’t stand them being messy. One day Stina and a friend moved everything around in my room and then t.p.’d it. I was screaming when I found out. I was so freaking mad.

But with all that said, she is an awesome sister. I always enjoyed going to youth group with her. She was my bigger sister. She made me feel very welcome. When she was out of high school every time I went it was not the same. I didn’t have her next to me when I needed her.

I love when we snuggle in bed and talk, when we watch a bunch of movies together, when I am just with her. I had a blast when I went to California to visit her. We laughed so hard. We got to go to the beach together and walk around. I got to meet all her friends. I hope I get to go back next year. My sister is really a blessing. Whoever is around her will be blessed.

Fun times in California!

Thanks for being an AMAZING sister to me. I could never ask for a better older sister!


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Mission Trip!

June 3, 2008 at 11:18 pm (Blessed, Church, Life, Trusting) ()

My team and I  have been having meetings every Sunday for awhile. They are good meetings. In the meeting we have been learning Spanish. Learning other languages is very hard for me. I am dsylexic and thats why it’s so hard.

One other thing that we are suppose to be doing is dramas. We don’t have the video to show people how to do them though. We have not even started practicing them and we ONLY have six weeks left – that’s not long. They are kind of hard to learn. I am just praying that we learn it very quickly.

During our last meeting, we had prayer before everyone left. It was really AWESOME! God was totally there. Prayer is a very important part of life. God does amazing things in prayer. Some of the things we had prayed for are: money to come in, fundraisers and for God to do amazing things when we are there.

One of the things that I have really been worried about for this trip is money so that I can go. I totally know that God wants me to go. He has made that very clear to me. I really want to go. I want to go like crazy. I don’t feel like the money has came in like it did the last trip. I think that God is doing this so that I can learn to trust him.

If all I am trying to do is get the money so that I can go, that’s not right. I need to be in constant prayer and seek God, making sure I am ready to go. I think that this trip will be a little bit more challenging. There are things like giving my testimony that we didn’t have to do last time. I don’t like getting up in front of people, so I think that it will be good for me.

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June 3, 2008 at 9:45 pm (Blessed, Life)

I believe that God speaks to everyone. Sometimes it’s very loud and clear. Other times you have to listen and it’s very quite. Its just your choice whether you are going to listen or not. I really want to walk in what God has for me. God shows so much mercy and grace. One of the ways that I really hear from God is when I am in worship. I hear him and he shows me things.

I want what God has for me. I bet God has so many things in store for me. I have to wait for all of it though. Sometime waiting for stuff can be hard. At least I know it can be for me. But if I wait, in God’s timing it will be so much better. People sometimes go with what their flesh is telling them. When I say people, I am including myself in that.

God wants intmacy with you. God wants you to be in love with him. I think people tend to forget God wants every part of you.

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Missions Trip

April 19, 2008 at 12:02 am (Blessed, Church, Life)

So my youth group is going to go to Belize this summer. I was planning to go. I was very excited because I only have been on one other mission trip before and I really wanted to go. I felt God say you’re going to go.

The last missions trip that I was on was in El Salvador. I just loved it there. I loved working in the orphanages. That’s what we did most of the time when we weren’t doing dramas. I didn’t really like doing the dramas.

It turned out that Belize wasn’t going to work out. So they decided that they needed to pick a new place. I would have never thought that they would go to El Salvador, but that’s what they picked. I am so happy. God knew that I really want to go back there. We watched a video of the trip that I took to El Salvador a couple of years ago and I saw people that I talked to. It made me so happy! I couldn’t believe that I get to go back.

My favorite part of working in the orphanages was just spending time with all the kids.

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