Dreaming…

November 17, 2008 at 3:18 pm (Life, Trusting)

Do you ever have a dream that gets crushed?

I have always been told to dream big. I have dreamed this dream for two or more years. I thought it was coming to be.  This weekend it was just crushed. I am very disappointed and very confused. I have cried a lot and felt very sick. Sick to the point that I just want to throw up!

I am learning that it really hurts,sucks and is painful. I will be alright though. God has me in his hands.God counts every tear I cry and it breaks his heart. I will have a couple days of hurting and then I am going to start dreaming BIG again or at least try. I know God probably has better plans for me and I need  to trust that. I don’t understand why this is happening this way but I need to trust God.

I know that this other person is pretty hurt too. I really believe its not this persons fault. This person is doing what others are telling him is the right thing to do even though its hard. We both are just really confused. Maybe this is for the good. God, I just don’t know!

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Are you ever determined to get something done?

November 15, 2008 at 1:07 am (Uncategorized)

This whole last weekend my dad has been going insanely crazy about getting all the leaves picked up in the front and back yard. So yesterday Daniel and Sarah did the front (without telling Stina or me) so that we would have to do the back yard my ourselves. That was not very nice. The back was a lot worse than the front. When I got home from church today they  had raked the back for us so that we only had to put the leaves in a bag. That was so sweet of them, But I bet it’s because they have no life!

Stina and I were talking the whole time. I love her so much. We were laughing so hard. I really don’t know what I would do without her! She is a big part of my life.  We thought it sucked to be picking up leaves on a beautiful Sunday afternoon. Today’s weather has been amazing!

I thought that this would take no time at all. There were like eight spots where we had to pick it up. Stina and I thought that we could get it done in twenty minuets. We were determined. We even bet our dad that we could get it done, well He bet us one-hundred dollars. He had no hope in us 😦 He thought it would take an hour. We did it in thirty-five minuets, Now that’s GREAT.

Now we have ten bags of leaves. That is a lot of leaves.

What are you determined to get done?

What should we do with the leaves?

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Bible Devotions!

November 14, 2008 at 3:11 am (Uncategorized)

I have two more days left in Solid Rock. We have Bible devotions every week before classes start. Tomorrow I get to do it. I am very nervous and a little worried.  I am going to be talking about rejection. That’s a BIG subject. I know that I have struggled with that, so I can just share from my heart. It might not be easy, but I really want to impact the kids.

The kids love it when I give the devotions. It normally takes awhile to get them to be quiet for the other two people who do it, but when I do it, it turns silent when I get up there. I think it’s because I relate to them more. They really look up to me.

I hope that I do great. I hope I can change these kids lives. I am getting very excited!

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Sad. Very Hard.

November 13, 2008 at 5:46 pm (Uncategorized)

Today I told Solid Rock that I am not coming back next semester. (I have been working in the office for the last year and a half.) This makes me very sad. I cried. I really didn’t want to quit, but working there is not good for me. I feel God is not wanting me there right now; maybe I will come back in the future.

I am very broken-hearted about it. I am really going to miss the kids. I know they are going to miss me. I always hear the kids say “I wish Elissa was one of our teachers,” or “Elissa is so cool, ” Etc.

My idea of what my role should be is different from my boss’s idea. This causes a lot of strife. My boss last year treated me so differently and I felt like my gifts were being used and that I was appreciated. This summer my old boss left and I got a new one. I feel I don’t get treated with respect.  I use to love waking up early and getting ready. I was always so excited to be there. Sometimes now I wish I was not even there. This year I feel that whatever I do is never good enough for my boss. This makes me so sad because I know that I do a wonderful job.

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My new job update!

November 5, 2008 at 4:56 am (Uncategorized)

I love my new job. I am always so excited about going there. I never want to be too early or too late. That’s how I roll. I try and take a little nap before I go and I am always worried that I am going to be late.  I kept praying before I got this job that I would love it. That it would pay good money and that my co-workers would be more mature than those I worked with in other places. I feel God has fulfilled my wishes.

It’s all going pretty well. It keeps me very busy. I NEVER have time to look at my phone or even get a drink.

I was suppose to have six days of training. The other day a couple people called in sick. I had walked in and everyone was going crazy (or maybe it was me!!!). My boss came and told me that I had my own tables that night. I freaked out. I was scared.  I didn’t think that I could do it or even do a good job. I was supposed to have two more days training. That didn’t happen. They thought that I was ready.

It was a bad night. 1. One of the old people mad me cry. She was being so rude. I don’t like when people are mean to me. 2. I went back to the kitchen and my nose started to bleed. 3. I had dropped a tray carrying things back and broke a couple cups. I just wanted to leave. I sucked at it “that day”. I thought that they were going to fire me! 😦

Today I had been praying all day that it would go well. Praying makes things go a lot better. I am trusting God that I am going to love this job. I am doing the tables by myself now, no help. I feel I did a better job tonight than I have yet. I am still very slow. That makes me so sad.  I got a blister on my finger cutting things up today, does that show that tell you how hard I am working?

I think that it is very important to enjoy your job.

Pray is very powerful!

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My phone!

October 29, 2008 at 3:01 pm (Uncategorized)

A week ago yesterday my phone stopped working. This doesn’t make me happy.

Christina and I got in a water war. I did not even get her very wet, but she took it too far. So she went and poured water on my bed. My phone was charging right by my bed and the water spilled off my bed and ruined my phone. It won’t even turn on now. That means that I probably lost all my contacts. It sucks. I am very upset with her.  I am going to try to make her pay for half of it.

I can’t get a new phone until Nov. 10, which is almost two weeks from now. So that means that I am using my mom’s phone because it would be very hard for me to not have a phone! I am very grateful that my mother is willing to share with me. My mom rocks!

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Exciting news!

October 13, 2008 at 9:29 pm (Uncategorized)

I will be done with high school on December 18th instead of in May! I only have one quarter left. That’s not long at all. My senior year has been so much easier than other years. I have worked my butt off the last three years – it finally paid off. I get out a little early. I have loved all my teachers, my school and got good grades. I feel God is starting to bless my life, not that He has not before, but I am so excited to be out of high school. When we made this decision I was jumping up and down. I didn’t think that I would ever graduate early, but it’s happening.

So starting in January I will be starting beauty school! I am so pumped to do hair.

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My outreach group stated this sunday!

October 7, 2008 at 2:50 pm (Uncategorized)

I think it went really well. We had three girls, that’s a start. That’s what most groups started out with. Our youth group is just full of girls We are needing some boys to come!

 Our group is at Danielle’s house. Danielle spoke (which went really well) and next time it will be Josh. I was a little quiet this time, I will start talking more! Our group just rocks. I am excited to see what God is going to do with our outreach group and every onther group too. We all just need to pray that God gives us (me) the strength that we need to lead one of these groups. God rocks!

God is going to do amazing things!

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Friday = very hard, many tears

October 5, 2008 at 4:48 am (Life)

My Friday work day was very hard! There will be more to come about it, sometime later.

There were many tears after work. My eyes were very red by the end of the day.

Sometimes I don’t understand why people say and do the things that they do.

Later that night was better though 🙂

Have you ever had a day where you just need to cry it out because you had a bad day at work?

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I want to be 18 right now!

September 22, 2008 at 4:35 am (Uncategorized)

I wish I was eighteen right now!

I can’t wait tables until I am eighteen because you have to be eighteen to serve alcohol. One of the beauty schools that I looked at going to, you had to be eighteen. I can’t vote. I really want to be a grown-up. I am not like other kids my age. I am a lot different.

I can do a whole lot more when I am eighteen. Yeah, high school years are fun, I guess. I wish I would have graduated early, but that didn’t happen. I am not into the party scene that many people my age are into. They don’t like the homework part but they like to party, get in trouble, not having to have a job, staying up late, etc.

I am totally the opposite of that. I don’t get in trouble. I am very innocent. Sometimes too innocent. I want to start beauty school. I want to grow up and get on with my life. I want to grow up and get married, have a family, be a homemaker. I want to help with youth girls.

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